I roll in 12 gangs

So I know I haven't updated this thing in a while, but I figured I would post what's going on with my life right now on here, so I don't have to call and tell people...(I do read this often though to keep up with your lives, because I do care.)

I put in my 2 weeks notice yesterday for One Fresh. I asked my boss to meet with me a couple of weeks ago because I heard that he was upset with me. I thought he had only been upset with me for a week or two, but it turns out that he has actually been mad at me for the last 3 months, and never said anything. He's a very fake person.

I start out our meeting by saying, "I found out that you have been upset with me, and I thought it was a recent thing, but I just found out it has been for some time now. I would like to know why and what I can change in order to make the situation better." He then tells me that it's MY fault that I didn't know he was mad at me, because he always knows when people are mad at him. He then hints at, without saying explicitly, that I only got my raise in August because they assumed that I was leaving Tallahassee in December, since I graduated. He tells me that he's mad at me because I have no leadership ability, and that people have told him, "Yeah, I like working with Diana because she never tells me to do anything." (Which is bullshit, who would actually say that to their boss?" He tells me I'm immature and that at some point I need to become an adult. I again explain that I had no idea he was mad at me for that long, and that only recently had people started telling me because I asked around. He told me that I should have never asked other people, and if I heard he was upset with me then I should have just gone directly to him. He also said, verbatim, "You could say, conversely, that I should have just told you that I was upset with you, but I figured if you were too stupid to figure out I was mad then you would be too stupid to care."

I swear, I also flipped the table and dropped it on his bald head. He's 40 years old! Are you fucking kidding me?

So now that I have enough money to pay the rent for the rest of my lease, I'm out of there. I haven't spoken to him since and have barely worked while at work.

I'm gonna go live at home for a bit, and visit my family in Texas. Hopefully I get accepted to one of the three grad schools I applied to, and I'll start class again in the fall. If not, who knows from there.

In conclusion, I'm leaving Tallahassee within the next month. I'll be back randomly to finish packing, but not for long bursts....so let's hang out. Deal? Deal.

I was drunk dialed last night by someone totally unexpected. You know who you are.

Just know that it totally made my day! And I don't need a ride home from the airport

Now play your turn in scrabble, bitch!

So yeah, my phone stopped charging randomly. I've been turning it on and off, just to check my messages, but the battery died today.

In conclusion, I currently have no phone, and probably won't have one until I get back in town.

You can still call me and leave a message. I can listen to my messages from different phones. You just need to leave your phone number in the message if you want me to call you back because I can't check my phone book for your number.

I have decided that I despise motorola razors, and I will not be getting another one. They suck ass.

I'm really upset about this because I feel naked without a phone but mostly because Stephanie (my good jewish little) called me today from Israel and I missed her call. Seriously, she wasted minutes from a phone card to call me, and I missed it. I was so depressed.

Anyways, I hope you're having a great break!

I need another job, asap. This whole being poor thing is killing me.

Please let me know if you have any ideas.

I am in Texas now until the 30th.

I'm feeling sappy and such.

I miss you guys already.

Sorry I haven't written in a while, but I just haven't felt the urge. But I've been reading all of your posts because I'm a crazy stalker person, lol.

So I cut my hair off for Locks of Love. And I cried. I purposely waited until my hair was long enough so that when the 10 inches were cut off, my hair would still be past my shoulders. Well, of course, my hair now barely touches my shoulders. (She cut off more like 12.) I've gotten a lot of complements, and I don't think it looks terrible, but I miss my long, curly hair.

And since it's turkey day, I'll write what I'm thankful for. My friends, my family, my health, my boss for closing the store for four days, my cowboys winning, and Michael. :)

My sister is coming home for a visit from Israel on Monday and didn't tell me until today. I am so stinkin excited! I haven't seen her in almost a year and I miss her so much! Too bad we have initiation next weekend, or else I would go home. :( Hopefully she'll come to me though.

Anyways, I hope you guys are having a great thanksgiving. I'm in Texas until Saturday. (Spending time with my daddy! Yay! I'll see you soon

For the most part, I am really happy about my life right now. I realized some minor changes that I needed to do for myself and they really are helping me out. My grammar has improved and I don't dress like such a slob anymore. I put make-up daily, although not much, just because it does make me feel better about myself, and when I feel good, I am a much more positive person. I'm happy with AphiO and know that, although I'll be working my butt off this semester, I am going to do an amazing job. I'm happy about the decisions that I've been making, knowing that I am being more responsible and am doing my best to do the right things. I'm doing well in all of my classes and I've only had one slacker day, which I will blame on Severa. I'm happy that I'm with Bryan a lot, because he is awesome. It's nice to have that friend that I can just wash my car with and still have such a great time. I'm ecstatic that it's football season, and that Dallas beat the Giants and FSU beat UAB. I am looking forward to my sister being home in the next couple of months. I am about to celebrate my 22nd birthday, and although I'm old, I know that my party is going to be fun and I am looking forward to it. And then there's him. :)

But it's so hard to be happy when everyone around me that I care so much for isn't. I love you guys, seriously. Please cheer up and know that I am here for you, no matter what, because I want you to be happy. Also know that I'd be willing to do anything that I could to make things better, you just have to let me know what those things are.

Let's celebrate our happiness together soon, k?

Ok, I have a complaint. And I can't say anything to my family about it.

My aunt, my cousin, and I are in Hemphill, TX, visiting my grandma and my dad. I just adore my dad; he is by far one of my favorite people in the entire world.

Anyways, my cousin keeps calling him "Billy" instead of "Uncle Billy." She also keeps ordering him around, telling him not to change the channel on the TV or telling him to sit up straight and blah blah blah. I understand that my dad is "handicap" if you can call a short-term memory problem that (since the state does) but he's 55 years old and deserves respect from at 26 year old! I mean, who is she to tell him what he can watch in his own house. I would never talk to her father that way. :( It just hurts my feelings. He's not some dumb boy. He's a grown, amazing man.

I just want to bite her head off every time she does it, but I refrain. I know that I should say something since it's bothering me, but I don't know how to say it nicely.

ACK!

i've started my research for a church in tallahassee, and have found a couple that sound interesting.

next sunday, i'm going to church. it's just gonna happen. :)

I'm starting to get bored with Texas. But it's only for another week, so I can make it.

I'm going to see my dad in 2 days though, and I am really excited about that. :)

I miss my Tallahassee people.

I finished reading the fourth Harry Potter book today. I'm going to start the fifth book tonight. I'm flying through these things and it's really exciting. I have so many questions that I want to ask but I really don't want to hear the answer, because I don't want anyone to ruin things for me. But jeez, I can't wait until the seventh book just to figure things out.

My grandparents neighbors, who I've known my entire life, are going through a really rough patch right now. Gene, the husband, has lung cancer and is losing his battle. Today he was put into a hospice, which just terrifies me, because I know what that means. The normal heart beats 50 to 60 times per minute, but Gene's is beating 10 times per minute. How crazy and terrible is that? It's just sad.

But to end on a happy note, my cousin returned from Africa today after being there for the last three months. She was there doing mission work, being the good Christian that she is.

Speaking of, I've had this random urge lately to go to church. There are just certain things about my life that I don't want to change, and I have this fear of being a hypocrite.

Oh well, I'm gonna go anyways. It's my mission when I get back to Tallahassee to find a church that won't judge me too much. lol

So I am in Texas. As excited as I am about being here, I also wish that I was still in Tallahassee. I really don't deal well with change I suppose.

But thank god for 3 weeks off! lol

And don't you worry. I'll be back to Tallahassee on the 21st. Maybe a couple days earlier, but I don't think so.

Adam and I saw the Bourne Ultimatum last night which was really good. So if you like the other 2 movies you should definitely see it. (I flew out of Orlando in case you are confused.)

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In other news, I am constantly second guessing every decision I make. I know that I made the right decision but crap sometimes I worry that I didn't. But when I'm with him, I know know know that I'm right and that it's a good thing. Actually, it's a great thing. So why the constant battle in my head? I think that I just like to torture myself or something.

Maybe it's just because it's new and different. And I'm probably scared. But it makes me happy so I shouldn't stress about it. Easier said than done.

Heidi, I miss you. Fuck Tennessee and come to Texas. Bring Leslie with you. K Thanks. lol.

B.A. EH! Thanks so much again! EH! You're the best! I super serial love you long time. :)

I'm really not ready for summer to end....

I'm really happy with the way things are going right now. It's sad to think that I am going to be leaving Tallahassee in less than two weeks for like two and a half weeks.

I'm happy about the decisions I've been making. I get a little sentimental and I miss the things I had with a particular person, but then I have to force myself to remember that things are better this way. And realize that he/she/it does care about me and that he/she/it really does just want me to be happy. (lol, I don't really want you to know who I'm talking about, obviously. But guess if you want, but no matter who you say the answer is going to be no.)

I haven't started packing yet, and that blows. I swear to God half of my shit is going to be thrown away, because honestly I don't need it.

Also, flirting with me is fine and dandy, but doing it out of spite to make someone else jealous is lame. Listen to your own advice, "get your head in the game, get ya get ya head in the game."

Heidi: "I've had my toes sucked before."

Diana: "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

I just think this is a funny story.

I get off of work and call Heidi who does not answer.

So I hang up and call Leslie, who does answer.

Leslie had been talking to Heidi (that's why Heidi didn't answer when I called) so Heidi tells Leslie to tell me to call Heidi when Leslie and I get off the phone.

Leslie and I talk for a while.

Heidi get impatient and calls me.

I then hang up with Leslie to talk to Heidi.

This is when I find out that Leslie and Heidi had been talking on the phone with eachother.

I make plans with Heidi for dinner, and now I'm calling Leslie back.

LOL. We are super dorks and in a crazy love triangle.

So I quit my job at the phone center. And by quit, I mean, I just never showed up. I hated it there. I'm a really hard worker and it's really hard for me to quit, so this just shows how much I hated it there. It made me really appreciate 1 fresh though.

But I honestly feel like working is taking over my life, and I hate that. I guess it is going to have to happen eventually.

Last night I locked myself out of my apartment and both of my room mates are out of town. It totally sucked and I felt like a total tool.

But last night was a night of movies for me. I saw Transformers in the theatre (which is AMAZING!) and then went to Aladdin's (...again :D) and then watched Jurassic Park. (which I love.)

I wanna go on a road trip, anywhere. I wanna go to St. Pete and go to the Dali museum. I wanna go to Orlando and Epcot. I wanna go to Savannah and visit my old friends and tour the beautiful city. I'm just ready to leave Tallahassee.

I already miss Kyle and it's only been 2 days. Good thing he's coming back Sunday.

So, I haven't updated in a while. But that's because I'm busy. I'm in summer school, working 2 jobs, and trying to have a life all at the same time. And I'm rocking at everything.

I'm doing pretty good in spanish, which is awesome. 2 jobs equals lots of money. And I've been hanging out with some amazing people, but missing a few others that I don't hang out with as often as I used too.

B.A. I need to talk to you. So you should call me. I would call you, but I'm pretty sure you won't answer because you never do! lol We also need to figure out this last.fm thingy.

I also want to buy Leslie's guitar from her, but I need someone to teach me how to play. Any suggestions?

I haven't been to Jacksonville since last thanksgiving, and I all of a sudden have this strange urge to go. Roadtrip anyone?

So I know that I'm not skinny and I accept this. Well, I don't really accept it, but I know it's true so I'm working on it.

Because of this, I don't call other people fat.

So, if you're not skinny, maybe you shouldn't call other people fat and ugly.

And, if you think I'm a bitch now, talk shit about the people that mean most to me, and you'll see exactly how bitchy I can be.

<3 Have a good day!

So I actually went to the gym today. And ran three miles. And thought my legs were going to fall off. But I feel much better now, lol.

But the highlight of the gym visit is....I saw a certain advisor. I saw Mr. Dudley and he was definitely looking studly. :)

so here i am, sitting in adam's living room, watching office space while he is asleep in his bed. i have to admit, it was a but awkward hanging out with his mom and brother while he is sleeping, but it's whatever. now i am looking forward to sleeping on the couch. lol.

this sounds way worse than it actually is. i am really enjoying my time here in orlando. it's nice to get out of tallahassee every now and again, which i haven't done since spring break. last night we went out to dinner at a hibachi restaurant, played black light putt putt, and watched shrek the third. (which was really cute btdubs.) today we walked around millenia mall, an outlet mall, and then guitar center, where we both drooled over guitars. tomorrow is the arctic monkey concert at the hard rock, which i know will be a blast.

in conclusion, i'm having a great weekend, even though i'm sleeping on a couch. i miss hanging out with him. it really sucks that one of my best friends moved away. he's such an ass hat sometimes. lol.

i'm really sad that i missed out on the "wanna get lei'd" party last night. i hope you guys had fun and drank plenty of liquor/beer for me.

see you guys monday! big daddy's anyone?

okay, okay. i just have to come out and say it.

leslie rising and i are really great friends. but one day she took it too far. she tried to kiss me and when i stopped her, she told me about how she has had a crush on me since the first day that she met me.

in conclusion, leslie rising is a big ol' lesbian

that is why she keeps writing hateful things on livejournal because i won't love her the way that she wants me too. i feel so much better now that everyone knows.

p.s. i love you long time leslie! just not in that way.